Friday, September 29, 2006

Still Here

I'm still here. It has just been a crazy week. Some days were really really up and some weren't so I haven't had much time to post. I did so good by posting twice in one day last Thursday and then I let my good writing streak just go to waste.

I don't really feel much writing tonight. I would be so happy that today is finally Friday but at the last stupid minute William's company deemed tomorrow ANOTHER MANDATORY SATURDAY!!!! I am so so sick of mandatory Saturday's. Anyway I am just a lot bummed out tonight. I've found myself feeling down a lot this week.

The other night I had the girls in the bathtub and they were having a marvelous time splashing and playing and laughing at each other and it was really cute but I just couldn't find any cheer in the moment. I mean I even realized looking at them that something was wrong with me because I couldn't be happy in that moment. I was sad and depressed. I missed William so bad in that moment that my stomach hurt. I think what is wrong with me is just I am sick and tired of William working six days a week. I am lonely and I miss our time together. I miss having someone to share the load with and I miss having someone to talk to. I think this might be the last Saturday they have to work for a while so maybe I will feel more upbeat next week.

I will try to post a real post tomorrow, maybe even with some cute pictures and all. We'll see :)

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Hi Ho Hi Ho ... Off to work we go!

Today I took the girls to eat lunch with Mimi (my mom). We had huge Greek salads sitting on the patio of the restaurant. Today was another beautiful day outside. The girls have really been enjoying the fresh air and sunshine. After lunch we headed back over to mom's work to show the babies off. They were the hit of the office and Maddy even tried to make herself useful by picking papers out of the shred bin and then putting them back in it. I think she really thought she was doing something great. Everybody at mom's work just oohed and aahed over them, telling me over and over how beautiful they are. It made our day.

After leaving there I took the girls to BabiesRUs to pick up a few things we needed and ended up getting a few extra things, including a baby swing. It takes about fourty-five minutes to get home and the girls slept all the way. They were so tired from all the excitement. When we got home I layed them down for a nap but they wouldn't hear of it. I guess all that snoozing in traffic was all they needed. So I took the playpen and set it up in the front yard. I took a couple of toys and two very happy babies outside to play some more.

We have an ancient swing set frame in our front yard. It has been here since before we moved in and that was several years ago. It is missing most of the actual swing set equiptment but it is still in sturdy enough shape to be used. I hooked the girls new swing to it, which was extremely easy. I put Maddy in it first and she had a blast going back and forth. Then when she looked weary I switched her out of it and put Morgan in it. They had so much fun, wind in their hair.

William usually gets off around 8ish at night but today he went in earlier than usual and got off about six. When he came home we were still outside playing and he and I moved the old swingset frame across the yard to the other side of our house, that way we would have more privacy when we play outside. After we moved it, he got on one of the old seesaw seats and swung back and forth with Maddy. She loved that too. I of course took pictures.

Now we are inside getting ready to settle in for the night. Both Maddy and Morgan are exhuasted from the long day. Morgan is actually laying on the floor throwing a whiny tantrum right now and Maddy is just whining and playing with her toys. I think we might be putting two little angels to bed early tonight, but that is okay too I guess.

It was such a fun day. I am so glad it is fall now and we can actually get outside and not bake to a crisp. I love this new fall air. Someone told me today that tomorrow is the official first day of fall? Woohooo!

Lunch! Yummy, yummy ...
Helping Mimi at work!
Playing Outside at home :)
Oh Daddy, you're SO silly!
P.S. Can you believe I actually blogged twice, TWICE, in one day! Yay, for me!

Easy Breezy Beautiful Afternoon

Yesterday was such a beautiful day here. It was breezy without being cold and the temperature was just perfect. I had quite a bit of company throughout the day but during the afternoon I packed up the girls and took them to a park around the corner that Brigitta, their sitter, had told me about. It had two baby swings side by side and a cute little playground. It wasn't a busy park and there were lots of trees for shade. We had a great time. This was the first time the girls have ever been to the park and the very first time they have been on the swings or slide. Here are some pictures from our wonderful afternoon :)





When we got done, we stopped for an ice cream cone to share. The girls were so cute with the ice cream and of course it was all over them, but that was part of the fun.



Thursday, September 14, 2006

All Better

What makes a bad day all better?

1. Cookies .... Homeade (okay, Pillsbury Break Apart & Bake) Chocolate Chip Cookies
2. Bubble Baths, every girls love them!
3. Daddy! Daddy always makes our day better :)
4. A good night sleep! Happy girls from this morning.
Here's to having a much happier day today!

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Irritable and Gross Day - We all have them right?

I am so irritable today. The girls are so irritable today. I don't know what is wrong with us. Here are 10 reasons today has NOT been my favorite.

1. When I woke up this morning William and I decided to run to Walmart. We both needed a couple of things. First I couldn't find my shoes, then I couldn't find something else I was looking for. I was irritated and I knew right then at 8am that it was going to be one of those kinda days.

2. We got to Walmart and I needed some ribbon cut from the fabric department and the lady back there was SO rude. I asked her if she knew if they had any sequins and she said no, not sewn together but they had some that were loose. But then she didn't tell me where to find them and just walked off and left me standing there.

3. When we got home I realized I had forgotten to get a few things at Walmart but was too tired to go back.

4. This afternoon I was talking to William on his cell phone at work. He was on his lunch break in the breakroom. We were in the middle of discussing something in depth when they called him to the front office so he had to let me go for a minute. He called me back and it was almost time for him to go back to work. We were saying goodbye when I hear his boss in the background acting like a jerk and telling him "breaks over" and to "hang up".

William is a manager and is on the phone all day with different companies. Also he has been probably one of the best good punctual hard working employee at this company for years. His break was interrupted while he was on the phone with me the first time and now he is being told to "hang up" on his wife. What a jerk. I am so sick of his boss. He is such a ..... (fill in the blank yourself). This is just one of a million reasons I don't like the guy. He is just full of himself and likes power and gets in these moods where he tries to treat my husband like a child. I could have gone through the phone at that moment. I wanted to tell William to just quit and come home but of course I couldn't because ... we had already hung up.

5. I was making lunch for me and went to put my paper plate in the microwave when I bumped the sink and my coke that was on the counter fell over and poured out its entire contents all over the floor. So I had to clean that up of course :( and by that time my food was cold again.

6. I have been working hard on the girls Halloween costumes for the past two days. Hence the reason I needed sequins (which I never did find) and was almost through when I realized I had messed up and sewn the front side to the back side of the skirt I am making and had to take every machine stitch out by hand and start all over. That sucked. I finally got it all figured out and was finished with it for the day. I put it on a hanger and layed it on the table. Without thinking I stopped and grabbed a coke from the fridge and popped the top and coke of course spashed out onto my newly finished project. That really made me feel bad. I got it clean thankfully so hopefully it will be okay.

7. On top of all the bad luck today, I think I have literally changed eight poopy diapers in the last nine hours since William left for work and I think if I smell or see any poopy diapers again I am going to go crazy. I can't wait till he gets home so he can be on full time diaper duty for the rest of the night. I think I have done more than my share today!

8. We are having a nat problem in the house this week. Usually we only have nats when we have overly ripe bananas on the table. For some reason they pop up when the bananas start to turn brown. But we haven't had any bananas in the house for weeks. We change our garbage out at least once a day and the house is clean. We have no dirty dishes in the sink and haven't for a couple of days. When I sit at the computer desk they fly around my head and to the lit up computer screen. I only see one at a time. If I kill that one another one magically appears. There is nothing around a computer desk I can think of that would attract them. I went to my room this afternoon while the girls were napping and tried to read a book I have just started and guess what ... nats. All around the book and my face. I am swatting in the air like an insane person. I can't stand it. We live next to an orchard so maybe that has something to do with it. A lot of the fruit that hasn't been picked is probably rotting outside now. Whatever the reason, it is driving me crazy!

9. The babies are whining and crying all the time today. If they aren't whining and crying and snatching toys from one another, they are getting into everything and I mean EVERYTHING they are not supposed to.

10. For example, our house is so tiny, so our computer desk in in the corner of the room. It is a hutch with doors on the front that can be closed to keep the girls out of it. At the bottom of it is our printer with paper on it, plus some miscellaneous cords that go to the digital camera and what not. When I sit at the desk. I have to put pillows up to keep the girls from crawling under my feet and pulling all of the paper off the printer and eating it. It is seriously annoying. Today Morgan has taken it on as her personal mission to do everything in her power to get to the desk. She has crawled around the first pillow, behind my computer chair, and comes around in this tiny crawl space between the wall and the desk. I have to keep picking her up from one side of my chair and putting her over on the other side. I keep fussing at her and telling her "no" but as soon as I sit her down on the side where I want her she starts making her way around again. So it is a constant chaotic movement and I can't type because I keep having to move her. I am trying to ignore her now but of course because I am, they are now BOTH in the tiny crawlspace area fighting with each other.

Tonight I just want to cry. I am tired and I am so frustrated. Some days it is so hard having two fiesty exploring cranky clingy babies wanting to hang all over me. Sometimes the workload is just more than one person can handle alone. Don't get me wrong I love them more than life itself and I would rather have 100 billion irritable crazy crappy days than be without them for one second. But it is not always cookies and sunshine being a mom. Some days are much harder than others. I know every mom out there probably feels like this at some point or another so I know I'm not alone. For today, I just can't wait for William to get home so I can crawl under the covers and start tomorrow a different way!

Thank goodness it is almost bedtime now :)

Monday, September 11, 2006

Grandparent's Day and an Impromptu Photo Shoot

Yesterday was grandparents day and so William and I got up and decided to take the girls around town to see all of their grandparents.

We went to lunch at a local pizza place and then we stopped at Papaw's house to drop off a card for him. He is my Papaw and the girl's great grandfather. He seemed to really enjoy seeing us and didn't seem to mind at all that they went around the room banging away on this and that.

My mom's house was next, to see Mimi and Poppy. The girls love going over there and we spent about an hour hanging out with them. Morgan took in a few minutes to play a concierto again on the piano and Maddy played happily in the walker, running from this room to that squealing "Dada" the whole time.

When we left my mom's house we headed home where my dad was in route to come to our place to visit with the girls. My dad loves photography and has this fancy Nikon digital camera that takes excellent pictures of the babies. It will hold a few thousand photos so we are in no short supply when it comes to taking pictures of them. So last night William and I had fun setting up the living room to look all fall/autumn like, so that we could take some pictures of the girls. Boy did we ever. I think we took close to three hundred pictures all together.

I love to send out holiday cards to our friends and family and thought it would be fun to send one out for fall this year. It was cooling off outside but then today the temperature shot up again to like 97. Whatever, when it starts to really cool off, I am going to send some out.

As I was saying, we set up pumpkins and corn and watermelons that William got out of our garden and we bought some leaves and flowers at Walmart to lay around and we set up a cute little photo shoot. I am going to post some of the pictures we ended up taking of the girls. Some are so funny and some are just so darling I had to share. Hope you enjoy :)


Morgan finds a watermelon!

Maddy walks to Mommy!

Maddy makes her silly face!

On That Day

I rarely do anything other than cute pictures and stories of my girls, but today is a different sort of day. Today is the 5th anniversary of the September 11th terroist attacks on America.

Where were you when you heard about it?

I was on my way to work, listening to the radio when the DJ broke in and said the first plane had hit. I remember the weird feeling I had as it took me a few seconds to actually comprehend all that he was saying and then the second plane hit while he was talking. The DJ started yelling on the radio. He wasn't even talking calmly relaying the news anymore. He was relaying it but almost shrieking.

I got to work and everyone was in shock. We had a large conference room t.v. in a closet next to our work room that someone pulled out and plugged in in the middle of two aisles of cubicles. We turned it on and because there wasn't much room left to stand and see. Some of us stood on our desks and looked over the walls to watch the t.v.

We started crying when the first tower fell. We were watching it live. We were in disbelief when the second tower came down. People were walking around with their hands over their mouths. A reporter on t.v. said there were more planes that had yet to comply with the grounding orders and I remember feeling like the world had gone mad. What was happening? Were more planes going to hit buildings and kill more innocent people? And then they did. We were so sad. We were scared. We were in shock.

The day was so somber. I don't think we actually did any work that day. People came and went to impromptu church services all over the city. My boss left and went to her church. Around lunch we went to a huge conference training room and held hands in a big circle and prayed for the families of those lost and hurt. We cried together.

Once home I remember that there was nothing on t.v. for days. For days and days we watched news coverage. We cried watching the families put pictures up looking for their loved ones. We cried listening to the stories of passengers on the planes who called their families to tell them they loved them one last time. One of the first things I remember is that when the regular programming did come back on, we watched David Letterman and he cried on t.v.

Over the next few days we couldn't find yellow ribbons or flags anywhere in the city. The American pride was stronger than ever and we all wanted to show our support. To unite and come together.

It was a sad sad day and I think it will forever affect us in ways we will always feel. I hope we never forget the feelings we had that day. May we always remember those lost and the pain we all felt for those families even though most of us didn't know them. And may we always swell with pride for our country.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Long Weekend

We spent the weekend house/pet sitting for my mom. Since her house is bigger and she has three animals we decided to pack up the girls and our dog and go stay at her place across town.

We had an okay time. It was a lot more work than I thought it would be. From packing up the girls which took forever because there is so much stuff you need for two babies, to taking care of four animals, two babies, and two people. I had hoped it was going to be a relaxing weekend since it was the first weekend that William and I had more than one whole day together since May.

Saturday we got up and William had to go help Tim and Beth move to their new apartment. From my mom's house that was about a 45minute drive, if not more. He was there for most of the day and came back in the early evening. Melissa came to my moms and helped me with the girls for a little while. We had a nice time together and even did a little shopping.

Sunday we got up and went to church at the church that I grew up in. It was nice to see all the familiar faces of people that used to be such a big part of my life. Maddy did fairly well in the service, even clapping and "singing" along with the songs. Morgan did well until the sermon at which point she decided it was too quiet and wanted to make some noise. I ended up spending almost all of the sermon in the foyer letting her crawl around on the floor. After church, William took us back to my moms and then drove out to Tim and Beths to get them to come over for dinner. While he was gone I put the girls down for a nap and tried to do some cleaning, even vacuuming my moms entire house. We didn't take them home until late that night and William got back to my mom's around midnight. We went straight to bed.

Monday was my favorite day. We slept in and then napped all day until about three. In between we just played with the girls and tried to spend time together as a family. We let the girls play the piano and they were like little Mozarts. Okay, well Morgan was. Maddy cried part of the time. Around three we got dressed and went to the mall. We took the girls on the carosel for the first time. Maddy liked it a lot and looked like it was the most normal thing in the world to be doing. Morgan was okay as long as she was sitting behind Maddy but when we tried to put them on their own horsies she was terrified. She spent the whole ride cluching the pole to the horse. It was kinda sad but cute at the same time. We did some shopping and ate a late lunch. Then we went back home and just layed around some more. Monday was the most relaxing day of the whole weekend. I wish we had made more of a point to spend the first part of it like that.

William's job has said that the next couple of months are going to be mandatory Saturdays, meaning that he will be working six days a week until at least Thanksgiving. While I am extremely bummed out about this, I don't know what I can do about it. I think it is good knowing ahead of time so I can plan things but it is also really depressing. I will be alright in the long run, it is just hard knowing that we will only have one day a week together as a family. His schedule is so full with him working between shifts.

Here are some pictures of the girls playing the piano. So sweet! I will post pictures from the mall later. All of the sudden blogger is giving me fits :(